Leah Ellis (@nurse.leah), Nursing Student
"I got a call from the nurse and they're like, "You need to come here now." I was like, "Okay. Well, I'm on my way. I'll be there in about five minutes." I get there and she pulls me aside and she goes, "Your mom is refusing treatment." I'm like, "What do you mean?" They went to go clean one of her pick lines and she pulled away from them. So, I went into the room and I asked her, "Is this what you want?" She nodded her head. The nurse intervened and asked or told her she was like, "If we stop doing this, you could die." She nodded her head. She was ready.
I was her POA. I was the one who I had to make the hardest decision of my life and I had to pull the plug on her. And her heart stopped. After that, I just went into a downward spiral. I was taking prerequisites for nursing school at the time. Failed all of them. I just couldn't handle it. I had to stop taking all my classes. I thought about dying every day. It was almost like a snowball effect. I had lost my grandpa. I had lost my mom. I didn't have a dad in my life. I wasn't going to have that father-daughter dance that every girl dreams of. My grandma wasn't going to watch my children grow up. She wasn't going to see me graduate nursing school.
One of the memories I have just embedded in my mind is she would ask me almost every day, "Are you a nurse yet? Are you a nurse yet?" Because it was taking me so long to get into nursing school and I'd be like, "No, Nan." I call her Nan. I was like, "No, I'm not a nurse yet. Just hold on. I'll get there. I promise. I promise."
What made me want to get better is Nursing school. It really honestly has changed my life and I love it. I walk into school or I walk into the hospital and I honestly feel like I'm home. It's where I'm meant to be. I honestly feel so proud of myself. I think that's good because I don't have my mom or my grandma or my grandpa to tell me that they're proud of me. So, I have to be proud of myself. I can't wait until I have that RN badge. And it's finally my time to be doing what I'm supposed to be doing. This is where I'm supposed to be." @nurse.leah, Nursing Student. ❤️🎬 #RealCaregiversRealStories
"...I honestly believe that nursing was meant for me. In a way I knew I wanted to be a nurse since I was in kindergarten. I know a lot of people say they were born into it. I honestly think I was born into it.
After a lot of the things that I went through in my past, I decided that nursing was meant for me versus becoming a doctor and rather diagnosing I wanted to intervene. The reason why most nurses become nurses is because they want that human interaction that they get at the bedside."