I still can’t believe I’m here. It all started as a dream, a fantasy in the mind of a young schoolboy raised by a single mom. My father left when I was three, and most of my childhood was spent bouncing around between family member’s homes while my mother tried to get back on her feet. We were struggling just to get by on government assistance, and the thought of one day becoming a physician felt far beyond my reach. The idea latched on though, gripping my heart like a vice and surfacing often.
I still remember the day, sitting at my aunt’s house watching the TV show ER and realizing that one of the nurses looked just like my mother. Inspired, I called her that evening and told her that I thought she should become a nurse because they looked so happy on TV. Mom agreed, and I moved back home with her spending hours after school translating nursing books into Turkish to help her study. It was through this experience of helping my mother, watching her succeed, and learning the basic functions of the body myself that my passion for medicine was cemented.
I knew that this was what I wanted to do with my life. I wanted to become a physician, connecting with people, touching their lives and being there for them in their most challenging and darkest of times. At the same time, I had to do one of the most difficult things I had ever done – step back and critically evaluate myself and accept my weaknesses. In a world where we are constantly judged by others, it’s beyond challenging to be our own critics. It was absolutely necessary though, and I quickly realized that I didn’t have the self-confidence or discipline to pursue my goals.
So, I enlisted in the Marine Corps Infantry. They shipped me off to boot camp where I was broken down, shattered to the core and rebuilt once more. I bled, sweat, cried, and served next to some of the greatest men I’ve ever met. It was a transformative experience, and one I wouldn’t trade for a thing in the world. I left stronger, both physically and emotionally. I walked away more confident, ready to topple any obstacle within my path and face any challenge placed before me.
Now, after years of undergraduate training and medical school here I stand an Emergency Medicine resident. The opportunity to touch so many lives, care for those truly in need, and support another human being through immense psychological and physiological stressors is a true blessing and honor.
I was once a young boy, with a dream he thought was beyond the stars. Now, after years of hard work, a great deal of introspection and a dose of self-confidence I wake into that dream every day.
Raise your arms to the sky friends, nothing is out of your reach.
- It’s never too late to follow your dreams, but it’s always too early to give up on them.
- It’s ok to fall, it’s fine to fail, so long as you learn from the experience and grow from it.
- When the skies are dark, and the hideosity of hatred spoils the very air we breathe, it's up to each and every one of us to let our inner light shine and beauty glow. Remember that darkness itself is nothing but the absence of light. Together, we can burn brighter than a thousand suns and bring peace, joy, and love back to this planet. It is our home, and by our I mean each and every human being. We must love without borders, have compassion without boundaries, and see without color. We are one. We are the people. We will come together and mend what is fractured, and heal what is hurting. There is no USA without US, and no US without every beautiful individual on this rock which we call home.
- There will be moments where you feel as though you can’t go on. These are your opportunities to grow. This is your chance to shatter your self-proposed boundaries and set new limits. Embrace it, fight, and better yourself.
Growing up, never in my wildest dreams did I think I'd be wearing a white coat. While I loved the thought of saving lives, I hated science. One professor in undergrad changed that; I fell in love with the biomechanics of the human body in his class and began to pursue physical therapy or athletic training. Soon, I discovered that my dream was to help the ill and injured, the ones who desperately need the care of a physician. I realized that sports medicine alone would not fulfill that dream, and thus, I began my long journey to becoming a physician. Now, I look forward to the day I can wear my long white coat and give my patients the holistic care they need.
Conference workshops are one of my favorite ways to learn! Not long after doing this splinting lab at a surgery conference, I helped a resident splint an ankle when I was rotating at the emergency room. I'm so excited to start my clinical rotations full time this week!
When I'm not at the hospital or studying, you can find me at the beach, watching hockey or football, cooking or at the gym!
Currently daydreaming of the day I'll finally be Dr. Sinclair. But first, let me get through this finals week.
Today, I finished my very first rotation of medical school! I had the BEST attending physician- he and his staff made me feel so welcome. I thought I wasn't going to like my family medicine rotation at all, but they really made me love my time!
Starting MONDAY, I am on general surgery for the next month. I'm so excited for the change of pace and to be in the OR. Special shoutout to my homies @barco.uniformsfor making sure I am all set to be comfy on long days at the hospital! Grey's Anatomy scrubs were the first pair of scrubs I ever purchased, and they truly have yet to disappoint me. Super excited to try out the collab with @softwalk and have happy feet in the OR!
Didactic years, for me, were incredibly challenging because of how much studying I had to do compared to how little patient interaction and hands-on skills there were. Days when I could cut cadavers, learn procedures, or practice my suture techniques were always my favorites.
On my first week of surgery clerkship, I was super lost and didn't know anyone. Right when we met, the OR charge nurse and I clicked, and she made me feel welcome to the team. We stayed through crazy late nights of cases together and she always has been there for me when I have questions or frustrations in learning the ways of the OR. I can't thank her enough for making me feel welcome! I'm so excited we can twin in our C3 scrubs for my last week in surgery, and I sure will miss this sweet nurse!
Tomorrow is the first day of my third year of medical school. I am SO SO excited to be done with classes and nonstop studying and finally working with patients! I love meeting new people and hearing their stories, so I am eager to start at a hospital I've never been at and see new faces.